Will I Ever Feel Peace Again After Child Loss?
🌿 After the Death of Your Child, Peace Can Feel Impossible
After the death of your child, the word peace can feel so foreign, so unreachable, so simple, yet so complicated.
It feels as if it’s never going to become a reality in our life ever again.
The definition of peace is mostly defined as a state of harmony, a state of calm, freedom from disturbance. Sounds great, right? Our hearts long for a state of harmony and for a state of calm, but yet somehow it can seem unreachable to a grieving mom and dad.
I want to share with you the six characteristics of peace today — not the worldly version of peace, but the kind of peace that we are able to grasp when we are in the presence of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
📖 Jesus Did Not Promise Me Escape — He Promised Me Himself
In the early months after Andrew’s death, peace — or should I say the lack thereof — seemed like a foreign subject. It felt impossible. My heart was shattered. My mind was racing. Silence felt unbearable.
I thought peace meant the pain would go away, or that somehow when life became “normal” again, peace would resurface. But this is what I’ve come to know: Jesus did not promise me an escape. He promised me Himself.
Though it took me a while to grasp that, slowly I realized that His peace wasn’t waiting for me at the end of my pain — it was showing up right in the middle of it.
✝️ A Holy Moment in Worship
It is almost impossible to experience peace if you’re not able to be present.
Let me give you an example. This past Sunday, I was in church and we were in the middle of praise and worship. Praise and worship for me has developed over time. If you’ve listened to the podcast for any length of time, you’ve heard me share several stories. I started out just standing, not being able to say the words because they were too hard. Then that moved to saying the words with tears streaming down my face. And eventually, it moved to looking forward to praise and worship with my hands lifted high in the air, praising my Lord and Savior. It has been a process, friend.
This Sunday, as I stood singing, it was just Tony, Sarah, and me in our row. And suddenly, I realized — it was our family of origin, minus one. Just saying that is difficult, and I know you get it. Tears streamed down my face, and I stopped singing. But what happened in that moment was precious. The Holy Spirit showed up, just like He always does when I open the door.
Listening to Tony on my right and Sarah on my left, it became a holy moment. The sound of their voices brought joy even in the ache. I let myself envision heaven — all of us, including Andrew, arms locked, praising God together. The enemy tried to stab me with “minus one,” but the Spirit reminded me: we are still a family, no matter which side of heaven we stand on.
This is true for you too, mama — even if you’ve lost your only child. God sees us as we truly are, even when we don’t have an earth suit, we are alive in Christ, and His peace can meet you right there in that reality.
✨ Peace the World Can’t Give
Worldly peace depends on external circumstances. It means you only have peace when an argument is resolved, when a problem is fixed, when things feel “normal.”
But God’s peace is different. His peace doesn’t wait for the storm to end — it holds us steady in the middle of it. This is not a distant, future peace. It is His gift for you today, right here in the ache of your loss.
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.”
— John 14:27 (NLT)
Romans 5:1 reminds us:
“Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us.”
Peace cannot be earned through perfect prayers or performance. You don’t have to strive for it, pray harder for it, or work yourself into it. Peace is a gift.
✨ Peace That Guards and Grows
Peace does not erase the chaos outside of us, but it quiets the storm inside.
“Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”
— Philippians 4:7 (NLT)
Friend, His peace is like Jesus Himself standing guard over your heart and mind. That’s what it looks like when you pray through the panic and realize your thoughts are calmer, your breath steadier.
Peace also grows when we trust God with what we cannot control.
“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”
— 1 Peter 5:7 (NLT)
Sometimes that looks like finally falling asleep at night — not because the questions are gone, but because you’ve handed them over to Him.
✨ Peace That Endures and Anchors
Jesus Himself told us:
“Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”
— John 16:33 (NLT)
His peace doesn’t remove hardship, but it carries you through it. That’s what allows you to get out of bed, pour your coffee, and take the next step — even when the tears are still falling.
Colossians 3:15 says:
“And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts.”
— Colossians 3:15 (NLT)
Peace isn’t a mood or a mindset. Peace is a person. Jesus Himself.
Even in your loneliest moments, when you feel invisible in a crowd, His presence steadies you like a hand on your shoulder. You are not alone, friend.
🎧 Listen to the Full Episode
✨ What you’ve read here is just part of the story. In the full episode, I share all six truths about the peace Jesus gives — with real-life examples and the encouragement you need for this very moment.
👉 Press play below to listen now to Episode 218 of The Grief Mentor Podcast.
🌿 Next Steps
- Choose one scripture from today’s blog and carry it with you as an anchor this week.
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